hey guys whats up, who reads this thing anyway? well except rob but he's forced to read it because hes the one that makes me write this dumbass shit..enjoy dear robert..so ive been worried lately, i think ive gained weight because my body doesnt look like it used to, but the thing is i eat less now than i have ever eaten in my life..i mean ive been sitting on my ass this entire summer barely leaving the house and eating, so that probably has something to do with it.. :) oohh red hot chilli peppers are on tv, i really like them, i think i want to be them when i grow up..yesss thats a reasonable goal, to be the red hot chilli peppers..its either that or a film maker, a producer, livin it up in L.A., tee hee hee...now thats the life.. i also thought about becoming a chef but then i was forbidden to cook in my house for a while because i kept starting stuff and forgetting about them which pretty much ended in lots of burned shit...but i still believe that if i want to become a chef i could totaly do it, but that would mean an entire lifetime, everyday, spent in a hot kitchen..not my idea of a good career..vickie tells me that whatever you decide now by the time you get to college you will probably change your mind about fifty more times so..out of all the things ive wanted to become the one that i can see myself still liking in 30 years is being a producer, well first working my way up to that and then hopefully one day, a producer..my ultimite dream tho, if i had it the way i wanted it, i would be an actress, because thats something im actually good at even now and that i could see myself doing, but what kind of career is that? your ass would be bouncing from one paycheck to another and you would never know what tomorrow holds. i guess there are just too many wannabe actors these days that cant get through in the business, and i dont want that for myself.. maybe i can be one of those really bitchy film critics that talk out of their ass but still has everyone listening, ill be like a movie prick.. ill be the worlds coolest parent also.. ill be really tough on my family, like i am now, because i want to be strict but at the same time i dont want to be one of those really controly people that dominates their entire family and has to have a say in every single insignificant decision..that would be too much stress for me as well as my family..i also want to be really mommy, and just sit at home and bake cookies for my kids after school, you know? i want the annie-camden (from seventh heaven) part of life too.. i dunno, i guess i should just try to get through sophmore year first.. tee hee hee... :):):)

yo people whut up..i havent written in a very long time because i feel like bloggs should be an outlet of some kind of emotion, but thats not at all what they accomplish, i mean, all that happens is that random people critisize you, why should i feel critisized? its not my fault all you people dont respond which makes me feel misunderstood...also, many times i just dont know what to write..so i guess im just going to write what ive been thinking about lately..since i dont feel like thinking before i write anything im just going to put down exactly what im thinking as im typing these words.. never done that before..
at this point its either that or watch another episode of oprah.. which reminds me, guess whos getting his own show????? yep thats right oprah haters, DR PHIL.. mmhhuuaaahhh..i think thats hilarious, he'll never last, it will be like dr laura who was on air of a total of about 6 days until people go sick of her..but anyway..back to today,
first of all, has anyone seen vickies hair??? to not cut hair for like 9 years and then to just dye it a disgusting orange color that will permenantly ruin the body of your hair, in my opinion, is rediculous. but she looks all different now so i guess thats an upside of some sort...its what she wanted..god im bored, i spent all night staring at the ceiling on top of my moms bed because i couldnt fall asleep, something tells me that will reoccur tonight also, although i finally saw what its like to not get any sleep and then have to be up all day, all in all, its not that bad...i feel kind of groggy, but the grogginess has actually given me a new perspective on this day...im usually an extremely bitchy person, im sure most people noticed that, but today i dont think i have the energy to respond to people who get in my nerves not as much at least..so thats definetely a change, but also im usually too energetic to actually sit in one place and do one thing at one time but today its like im in slow motion, i couldnt be up and about even if i wanted to, so i can actually read one book at a time and write one journal entry in my book, and i can finally finish that stupid poem i started like two weeks ago..it was actually kind of crazy because i started writing in my book at like 11 at night which isnt that bad at all, and i just kept writing and writing until all of a sudden, at like 3 oclock in the morning i get inspired to write this poem which is different than all my other types, everything else i write is so morbid, and this poem tells a story, its just kind of pleasant and weird..but i never did finish that poem, i like my writings to be perfect and im still not satisfied with two of the sentences in it so i have to wait until i get inspired again to finally complete it to my liking..by the time i finished writing it was like 4 in the morning and i was so tired, i dont know what im going to do once i get to like higher grades in high school and then college, holy fucking damn, am i ever going to sleep then?? SOMEONE ANSWER ME THAT! oohh im so excited, i got a thesaurus a lil while ago, so now i can look up words and when i do there will be more words for those words, and more and more!! its an entire world full of words, my heaven..i think that if i had one wish and it couldnt be flying, i would choose to know all the words in the world, in every language possible, of course i realize that it would be a huge burden but i would absolutely looovvve it.. im kind of excited about going with my family to drop off vickie at brandeis, i get to see becky, shes kinda cool actually, especially since she eavesdrops on all my conversations with vickie.. i think her and i are more alike than people realize.. why is it that all the people vickie gets in her life are so freakin weird? oh well, thats her fault.. the last time i went to brandeis, everyone thought i was an incoming freshman, it was kinda weird, i mean i was 14, how old could i possibly have looked? anyway, whoever finds this blog remotely interesting, dont hesitate to respond..if not, respond anyway. :) im out, Just Shoot Me and chicken time... meehehheee, chicken=good shit..
-irina-

a wise man once said this "It seems that Blogs are no longer journals, but outlets for emotion. My pain is not public property. Why should I advertise it for the entertainment or interest of others? Forgive me if I sound so angry. I mean this only as an explanation, not a comdenation."
this mans name is ed..as im sure everyone knows.hes brilliant for saying this. i feel that these words explain everything i feel about blogs and why i plan on stopping writing in them..so sorry
-irina-

so here i am sitting in front of my computer wrapped in a blanket because im so cold that i think my eyeballs feel it...i thought my head would crack into two halves but when i saw that it had no such intention i decided to follow robbies dumb advice and write something on this stupid blogger...are YOU (mr. y-o-u) happy now that you made me sit here and write while IM SICK??? well i hope ur happy mister because im not gonna write an entry at 12:00 at night again. ok so today i was sitting here watching "road rules 11" just like any other day when this commercial comes on about volunteering to be a mentor for kids who are on drugs.. and there it was.. the beautiful phone number on that screen that led me to my destiny..IM GONNA BE A MENTOR..well actually im not approved yet because im only 15 and they cant have a kid being lectured by someone younger than them, but i WILL get approved, that i promise you.. see, i started thinking, instead of seeming "self righteous" as my sister puts it, and instead of preaching my friends day and night about the eewness of drugs and how much they will kill ur brain cells, i can effect other people..u read up on drugs and reasearch all the subjects and let them know what they are doing, not just telling them that drugs are bad like more programs.... anyway, i thought, this is perfect for me, not only will i be useful i will also be earning community service and...the best part.. i will be enlighting people around me and teaching them what they have failed to learn in their own time..and also i am proud to say, i have stopped one of my good friends.. he has stopped smoking all together.. im working on the others but im so proud of my self.. hes fixed!!!! mmwwweeee!!!!! i feel like i found purpose to my teenage life, i only wish everyone would be so lucky:):) ...........................ok so im tired and bill cosby and his family await to make me laugh so ill write again later.
anyway, robbie, this article is dedicated to you:)..bye bye sweetums and im so happy to hear y-o-u dont like dr phil either..

This is Viktoriya, using my administrative powers to officially welcome Irene into the Blogging community. It is, as you will see, a friendly place. You might also notice that I have already added a comments box at the bottom of each post. Please everyone, dont hesitate and drop a line. The will be, time permitting, many changes to the layout of this place in the coming month or so, so check back often.

ok so this is the first time i am writing this blog thingie, my sis set it up for me, she said its great for bitching so i decided to give it a shot. im not really sure what to write though, i dont exactly keep my feelings bottled up, you know? there is this one thing that pissed me off yesterday though, i guess ill talk about that.

yesterday between 4 and 5 pm there was absolutely nothing to watch on tv, so as i was flipping through channels i stopped at a random one.. guess who decided to show up on my channel? non other than fucking oprah..now i have to say, sometimes she does have interesting things to say but at other times when she doesnt have dr phils ass to kiss like yesterday she just pulls things out of her ass..it was a show on sex, she was talking to older women and younger women about "sex today", so i was like "whatever ill listen to her spewing maybe its not that bad"..BIG MISTAKE. she was talking to some women and they were saying how sex got completely out of control in the recent years, and how about how "men treate women as sex objects and sex is not a sacred act anymore", all i could think was "u dumb bitch, ur old, u have no idea what ur talking about, women use men just as much, and women arent always victims, and if u dont want to have sex, no one is forcing u, u know?". that got on my nerves a little bit but nothing compared to the things that went on later... they were blowing the intire situation out of proportion, i mean if u want to have sex for the hell of it, then go ahead, and if u want it to be sacred, make it sacred, dont make it into a big deal, u know?
so then someone said "women will fall in love with a man after great sex and a man will just leave" i found that kinda funny actually because of how stupid it is.. i was fine until they got into the subject of lesbians, anyone who knows me knows that i dont handle that subject lightely, if u dont know what ur talking about on the subjects of gays and lesbians, DONT MESS WITH ME..ill probably attack u or something, i almost attacked alex and surgey, my cousins, when i went to cleveland, a couple times even.. anyway they said things like "there are more lesbians now a days" and "women are becoming lesbians beause of what men cant accomplish" and "its a well known male fantasy for a woman to be bisexual, so thats why women are persuing the act".. is it just me or does all this sound overly rediculous?? thats when i started throwing shoes at the television.. i even sent her a hate email.. one woman said "women have low self asteems when it comes to men so they turn to other women".. thats when the hairpulling came...i mean ur entitled to ur opinion but dont say things which u know nothing about. ooh how i wanted to slap her right then and there.
anyway, the point is, oprah is the source of all evil, she doesnt know what the hell shes talking about and without dr. phil there to save her ass everyday, shes nothing, i want her and all her little friends to burn.. :)
-irina-